I have Crohn’s Disease. It cannot be cured. It is the inflammation of the bowel -– a very serious and debilitating disease. I’ve had numerous horrid tests done that show I have active Crohn’s disease. But, I don’t suffer from it; in fact, no one would ever know I have it.
I don’t have a colostomy bag; I don’t take steroids and would refuse them anyway; and I don’t take any medication. The one medicine I was prescribed caused me to develop a severe allergy, and I nearly went into anaphylactic shock. So, I refuse all medication! Also, why bother? I don’t suffer anyway.
Yet how can this be? I’ve always been a bit of a researcher, and when my symptoms first appeared, I avidly searched the Internet and went to the library to gain as much information as I possibly could. I came to the conclusion that I had Crohn’s Disease, but at first I didn’t go to the doctor.
After Gary died, my father sent my mother and I back to our birth country, Wales. He thought it would help with our grief. This was about six months after his death. On the flight back, I experienced some bleeding from the bowel, so I knew I had to do something about it. So, naturally I went off to the doctor, who recommended a specialist, who then performed all sorts of glorious tests.
After my last test I went back to my primary physician, Dr Brooks. I sat down and said, “Well, is it Crohn’s?”
I swear he nearly fell off the chair! I think he was taken a bit aback that I knew this. He agreed with my own self-diagnosis and ordered my treatment. But before he wrote the prescription, I just made a decision that I wouldn’t be affected by this because I would keep very fit and eat right. I can’t convey to you how much I truly BELIEVE this. It’s so much in my belief system that nothing can change it. I believe it really is mind over matter, and once employed, it’s a strong antidote to any illness or misfortune.
Once you can believe something without “pretending” you believe it, you can do and manifest anything! I will go into more detail about this in a future chapter.
Dr Brooks was a caring man and I enjoyed visiting him. I am quite sure he enjoyed my company as well. I was at the peak of my physical fitness at the time and a proud owner of a toned body. I was obsessed with fitness and my weight was quite low -– only 48kg.
Apart from feeling a bit ill at times, I remained healthy. The traveling to and from the Blue Mountains was very draining and caused me quite a bit of stress. But other than that, I had decided I was going to manage this disease on my own, using my mind-over-matter techniques, and I kept my focus on that at all times.
One day, some time into my treatment, I received a telephone call from Dr Brooks’ office. I was to have met him there the next day for an appointment. Unfortunately, Dr Books had been killed in an accident. This broke my heart, and I never bothered having another specialist after that.
At the time of this writing, I do not suffer from Crohn’s. It has showed up in a CAT scan I had a year and half ago when I broke a couple of ribs, but apart from that, my mind continues to keep my body safe.
